Fun with Poetry

I just came from a pretty fun party I might talk about tomorrow (if I remember). In the meantime, here's the shitty poem I mentioned yesterday!

Sweet darling. You are not who I

who did not think you would hurt me are.

Is there hope for us?

Angel discontented, sweep I that love you

into the dust under your cosmos, and feel

everything or if it please you nothing.

I am not an angel but that you are an angel

as such that I am, but I am not.

I feel you most

over the steady fade of our unisonal drumbeat.

Lover, can I live after you? You stay no more ethereal

than the fog without me.

You are a dreamscape in the heart of my corpse

and a flower in the spine of my child

and love to me now.

I am not without you.

Am I to love you who in me speaks a melancholy song

and whittles wood into little shapes unnatural—

you who in twilight speak in silence

and in the morning hush my only sunrise

under the guise of love?

Lover. You wound me in the ways of spaces

between the tiles of the backdrop and the rotting wood

constituting an infrastructure.

I am not who consigns to love you.

Painted lovely, a paper dress could not suit you better;

therefore let me go.

Make me feel better about myself, okay. Don't be mean.

Sadness Abounds

Well, shoot. I don't want to check how long it's been because it'll probably make me sad. It probably made you guys sad too! Sadness all around.

I considered adding "at least I hope so" to that sentence, but it seems wrong to wish that people were sad. Eh.

I suppose I could pretend this is just a normal update and talk about school or something. I made it through Hell Week, academically speaking, last week, and somehow emerged with all As and Bs for the second marking period! Guys, I'm going to Harvard. Like, for sure. Really. *suppresses tears*

I feel like a middle-schooler blogging for the first time.

I wrote a poem which got the approval of some of my friends. I'm not a huge fan of it myself but I'm blanking on what to say now (still having trouble with that after several months of absence, yes) so here's a poem for your reading pleasure:

The formatting got messed up and I don't feel like fixing it at this hour bahahhhhhh

The second one is from a different perspective, in case anyone was confused. Or if anyone bothered to read that. Gosh, I don't know. That's the only creative thing I've written in about three weeks so I'm kind of fishing for compliments by this point. I was really excited about this one story I was writing before this avalanche of work, but I haven't had any time to write and now I'm just not feeling it. Ugh, once more in the clutches of writer's block.

This is kind of a random thought. I was having a conversation with someone I don't usually talk to the other day, and at some point he said that he doesn't really love people, and I said in return that I don't find it that difficult to love people. I kind of wonder if that's true. I said it, but I'm not sure, because there's a lot of shallow people that I know who I definitely do not love.

Oh, that reminds me. I've recently become fascinated by the process of making friends. I want to make new friends! Not because I'm tired of my old friends, but just for the thrill of opening a new book and experiencing a new character. I kind of want to dip into every little world, if that makes sense. I'm not really sure. I'm inexplicably tired--inexplicably because I've been a lump all day. I did wake up at seven for no reason, though. Curse you, sleep cycle. Curse you.

Inexplicably Exhausted

I'm pretty worn out about writing after powering through an English essay in four hours, and I've forgotten everything I meant to say, but here I am, begging humbly for your forgiveness. I don't know what's wrong with me anymore, really! It's like I can't write anything!

Last week was like this semester's hell week. There was just so much stuff due and tests, I'm so glad this week is cut short. I wish I could get out of the totally ridiculous pep rally tomorrow, though. I have little to no pep. I'd much rather go straight to Shari's house and watch adorable movies (which is our plan for later in the day).

I finally went over to Zack's house the other day! We watched The Forbidden Kingdom, my birthday gift to him and also the greatest movie ever, and he beat me mercilessly at video games, and his mom called me a sweetheart and everything! It was lovely. I don't know what we'll do this weekend, but I'm sure we'll do something.

I had an epiphany the other day. I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and stop blaming the teachers for making the tests hard, and do what I know I need to do to score well.

I'm inexplicably exhausted, so I'll leave you with this half-assed attempt at an entry. Good night, loves.

As Promised

Now I give you a proper entry while waiting for the laundry to finish.

I hope everyone got through the hurricane alright! There wasn't a whole lot of damage here, though I know down by the shore was really bad. Our power went out for three days--the same amount of days we had off of school! We're making up a little bit of the deficit on Thursday and Friday, on which we wouldn't have had school if the teacher's convention in Atlantic City weren't cancelled for obvious reasons, but at least today is still off. Happy election, guys! I know a lot of you are old enough to vote. Zack turns 18 in two days. He's furious.

Speaking of Zack's birthday, I have no idea what to get him. Joy was kind enough to comment suggestions in my last post (though unfortunately I don't have time to order anything online). You know what you guys should do? You should all do the same because I am extremely desperate! I don't think it's even that he's a guy and guys are hard to shop for; it's that he's my boyfriend and boyfriends are hard to shop for. If he were just a guy friend I could get him Magic cards and call it a day.

Speaking of NaNoWriMo (haha it's funny because I wasn't), I'm extremely behind because I haven't written at all for two days and I need to go do that now even though the laundry will be done soon. Farewell!

In lieu of a proper entry (which I will get to later)

Between my house and the next is a mass of trees, so thick that the canopies become indistinguishable from the twilight on, a crepuscular creature with a thousand floating tendrils drifting in an invisible breeze, standing stalwart on mighty, sometimes twisted beams. I differentiated in my youth the trees which were good for climbing, and I could spring like a woodland fairy from one branch to the next without a falter; I learned the spots where the leaves fell so thick they made a veritable bed of damp, soft foliage, and stumble home in the evening wet with that ubiquitous moisture of the forest floor. I knew where to find little troves of pinecones, scattered about the ground through wind or the reach of the great trees, and often spent an afternoon stockpiling them amongst the roots.

I knew the paths which avoided the burs and the thorns, and I sensed which trees were old and would fall in the next great storm; I encouraged the young trees with childish supplications and caressing fingers, willing them, pulling them closer to the sun. When a tree fell I made the halo of its vertical roots into an alter for my innocence. I poked about the mud for worms, and in variance with my capricious mood, either released them back into their soggy homes, or left them on branches as offerings to the omnipresent but ever-concealed birds.

In the winter the space became a graveyard. The weather-beaten brown-gray oaks were sepulchers of the promise of life. If I placed my ear against the bark I could hear the distant hum of greenness, vivacity, the eternal turn of seasons deep within the dry cracked bark, but it was buried well. Dead leaves rotted into the ground and vanished, sometimes, under a heavy shroud of white, the color of mourning in my eyes, and therefore a fitting tribute to summer’s death. When the sun once more rose on the curling green infants of spring, alight on the branches’ ends, two seasons’ hardships transformed the fertile earth once more into the luscious carpet of the palace of the nymphs. In this time the sun was never gray, and the Earth never dark, but every fiber of nature breathed the secret of birth, and the breeze of the morning whispered of the light of day, and nightfall caressed the slumber of the spirits of the trees, and told them in its stars of the endless story of the rebirth of the world.

Weekend Festivities

I thought I'd blog before the power (potentially) goes out. Hurricane Sandy is kind of kicking up here. School has been closed tomorrow! Best case scenario: nothing bad happens, and they closed school anyway. We've stocked up on candles and stuff, so I guess we'll just ride it out with lots of blankets.

Zack actually just left! I was kind of worried that he wouldn't be able to come over because of the storm, but   luckily so far it's only been a light drizzle at most. I was devastated when I couldn't find The Forbidden Kingdom (the perfect movie), but we watched The League of Extraordinary Gentlemen instead while feasting on pizza pockets so it was fine. Then we watched Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog (also perfect) and sang along to every song (because we can). Then we went for a walk around my neighborhood! Luckily it was only a very slight drizzle by then. He had to leave kind of early, but that's okay, because it was wonderful :)

I never told you guys about the Halloween events I attended this weekend! Friday night was the Halloween dance, and I'm so glad I dragged Zack along. It was our first dance together! I had to change into my costume again on Saturday for Natalie's Halloween party, which was also very fun. There are now a lot of pictures on Facebook of me with a mustache, covered in toilet paper. I wish I had a good picture of my costume to show to you guys!

I suppose I'll go fart around till the power inevitably goes out. Have fun in this storm, guys, if you have the misfortune of currently residing on the East Coast!

Getting Through the Week

I realized that I'm no longer upset about what I talked about in my last post. Now I have incentive to do better next time!

I'm really excited about the new members in Quills and Keys. Admittedly, I might have been a little afraid that no one would join--but there are like five new members! Last meeting, we discussed NaNoWriMo, which we're encouraging everyone to participate in, of course. I'm very excited; I haven't written properly in, what, months? I want to start writing seriously again very much. I have an idea for a story, but not much in the way of plot. My story involves the devil. Exciting stuff.

I'm extremely excited for tomorrow, because tomorrow is the Halloween dance! Nobody ever goes to it, but it's a lot of fun and I'm dragging Zack along (kicking and screaming). It'll be our first dance together! Getting my costume together has been pretty hectic, but I finally have a dress and shoes. The crown I made with Shari is falling apart, but I'm going to go to her house early tomorrow to fix it. Dana invited me to a Halloween party on Saturday, too. It's like I actually have a social life!

I keep thinking that school tomorrow will go by really quickly. Well, I can only hope. Farewell, friends!

It hasn't been a month yet!

I've broken my (unintentional!) silence to tell you of an injustice. Friends, prepare yourselves.

Today was the South Jersey MUN conference. My committee was a lot of fun! I did very well--maybe the best I've ever done--and, you know, I really think I deserved Best Delegate. I'm certainly not the only one who thought so. I spoke a lot, and well almost every time, and responded quickly to other delegates' points against me, and contributed to drafting a resolution paper!

And then this happened. At the awards ceremony, they gave some random novice the Best Novice award, even though it clearly should have gone to a delegate from my school who did excellently. And then they gave me honorable mention. Honestly, that would've been fine if I'd actually deserved honorable mention, or even if a case could be made for whomever won Best Delegate. But who won Best Delegate? A novice. The aforementioned novice. If you don't know, a novice winning Best Delegate is completely unprecedented. Novices aren't supposed to be in the running for it. Frankly, he didn't do so much better than me that the chairs should have ignored precedent and chosen him. I basically got robbed of Best Delegate, and now I'm frustrated and upset because I know I won't get much sympathy from people because I got second.

So I've been sad about that all day and haven't gotten any work done. Tomorrow's going to be physics lab and psychology essay ALL DAY LONG. Man, this weekend is wonderful.

Out of Practice

So I'm bad at this kind of thing. That's it. I'm bad at blogging. I've had no excuse to wait two weeks but I did anyway, and now here I am. Not even for lack of things to write about!

Last Saturday I went on a date with Zack--paid for by my parents, since they wouldn't let me go to his house--and it was lovely! We went to The Cheesecake Factory and then wandered around. We're trying to think of something to do next Wednesday, but we have no ideas. Actually, we're pretty bad at thinking of something to do. Luckily we see each other in school!

Last Wednesday was the first unofficial meeting of Quills & Keys, and it was wonderful. We have big plans this year! Big plans! I wish we started sooner than mid-October. Also, I hope people actually join--at the first meeting, we're going to tell new members to raise their hand if they have questions, then if they do we're going to high-five them and continue talking. Then at the second meeting we're going to all wear pink and tell them, "On Wednesdays we wear pink." It will be perfect.

The transition between not having a lot of work because school just started and being bombarded with assignments was seamless--I suddenly have a helluva lot of work and I don't remember how it happened. I have an English assignment which is probably equivalent to an essay due on Monday, a set of ridiculously hard math problems and a physics lab due on Tuesday, text-book reading and note-taking for psych, and three pages of translation in Latin. What happened to last weekend when I didn't have any homework? That was beautiful.

I feel like I'm out of practice blogging. I'll try to do it more, guys. Have a nice day!

School!

So I completely lied about posting on Monday and Tuesday. I wasn't exactly swamped with work, but I had more than I anticipated and was really too tired to focus on blogging. But I haven't abandoned you, friends! I know everyone else is busy with back-to-school, too.

I have to say I'm very happy with my classes. I fixed the schedule error, and am now taking all the classes I want to take, none of which seem as difficult as last year's. I feel better prepared to handle a lot of work this year. I guess I'll go through all of my classes.

On Tuesday, I started with study hall. I recognized some people, none of whom I could sit with, so I sat with some random freshman girl. It was really fun telling her I'm a junior now and seeing the look of amazement on her face. Kim is in my study hall now, bringing me up to four classes with her!

After study hall I went to physics, where I was mercifully placed in the very back of the class, separate from the rest of the students. Luck of my last name, I guess. I feel much more comfortable there than in the sea of desks. After that was English. There's only one 3AP class, so there are 36 kids in that class, including about half of my very best friends! The teacher is a little eager with assigning homework, but I don't think it'll be a particularly difficult class.

Having lunch is actually pretty enjoyable. Currently, I sit with Kim, Maia, Benny, and Justin. I've actually been bringing lunch, unlike the last three years, though my lunch is more a motley assortment of sides than an actual meal. "Break", or homeroom or whatever, is good too; I know a lot of the people in there, as they were also members of Quills and Keys, and the teacher seems nice.

My first class after the break period was US History, though it was the wrong level. I felt very uncomfortable there, honestly. My new history teacher seems...well, like he doesn't like the world much. He's pretty funny, though. I'm looking forward to that class.

Latin has always been a pretty good class for me, though this year, like the last two years, I'm not really friends with anyone in my class. They combine the 3H and 4AP classes, which basically just means there's a bunch of seniors in my class. I know I'm a junior and all, but seniors still kind of scare me!

Finally, the last class of the day was gym, which is of course nothing special, though I know have it a different period due to my schedule change. I actually don't have gym shorts yet, so hopefully I can acquire some before I have to run around a ridiculously hot gym in sweats!

The next day, with the next rotation, I had math and psychology for the first time. I have the same math teacher as in ninth grade. She's kind of bumbling and unobservant most of the time, but she's nice enough, and I didn't have any troubling following her lessons. Psych seems really interesting, and I was lucky enough to find people I'm friendly with, who are now part of my class group. I'm really looking forward to this class, as well!

So that's all for my classes! My week thus far has been decent, though exhausting. It became increasingly harder to get up in the morning every night I didn't get enough sleep. I was looking forward to seeing Zack this weekend, but unfortunately that fell through--disappointing, but I'll manage! I see him between most classes, though of course not for very long. Next week we're definitely doing something. Yesterday I lazed around the house all day, but today I went to the mall with Maya.

It was a successful trip! I didn't actually buy what I wanted to, but I got to lovely shirts. I got this lovely button-up which I'll probably wear both to Model UN and school. It's a nicer color than is shown; more of a burgundy than a pink. I also got this super-comfortable long-sleeve tee-shirt, in the blue-ish shade, which I'll probably just wear all the time when it gets cooler out.

I'm not looking forward to having to set my alarm tonight! Well, I'll catch up with you all later, friends. I hope you all had an excellent return to school!

SEPTEMBER

I just watched the series premiere of Doctor Who. Such a fantastic show; it amazes me how they keep coming up with these things. I'm pretty sure everyone here watches Doctor Who, but if you don't, you absolutely should!

I'm about two-thirds through The Grapes of Wrath. Tonight and tomorrow I hope to finish and start/finish the work I have to do for it. And tomorrow I'd like to go to the mall. Get my haircut. It suddenly seems like I have too much to do, and not nearly enough time to do it in.

Till next time, friends!

OH MY GOD. I JUST REALIZED THAT IT'S SEPTEMBER AND I DON'T HAVE TO BLOG ANYMORE. WHAT. WHAT. WHAT.

I guess that's it for BEDA! I'll probably still blog on Monday, right before school, and then on Tuesday, but I can't promise daily posts anymore. I'll try not to disappear like I did a few months ago. Actually, I'll try to maintain at least weekly posts. Okay, till next time!

Wasted Summer

School starts in four days. I guess it's natural to feel like a summer never lives up to its potential, but I'm feeling pretty melancholy about the last few months. It feels like I spent too much time inside the house because I didn't have anything to do or anyone to do it with. I saw all of my friends at least twice, but in a span of three months that's not that great. I saved all of the summer work for the last minute (I'm about halfway through both The Grapes of Wrath and The Tipping Point, haven't started the work for either, and haven't read the 77 pages of my history text book yet), and am now rushing to complete it.

I have all of my school supplies set up, and my outfit picked out for the first day of school. I have plans to go to the mall and get a few last-minute clothes (because really, can you ever have too many clothes?). I have all of the things on my wish-list. I have the schedule I want (or I will, a few days after school starts). So everything is set up in that front.

I'm excited to see my friends every day again. I'm excited to finally be taking physics, and to get back to Latin. Part of me is excited to have a routine again. Part of me thinks it won't be a repeat of last year; that I won't be so weighed down that I crack. But then, part of me is afraid that it will happen. Part of me imagines afternoons filled with homework that I can't bring myself to do, nights turning into screaming matches with my parents. I'm afraid that they've taken the wrong lessons from last year, and are going to start off being so restrictive that it'll choke me early on. It got worse when I felt like I couldn't do anything to help myself.

It's frustrating when people lose trust in you, because they didn't listen to you in the first place. Their punishments only reinforced my growing hopelessness. I didn't have solace at home or school. So I'm afraid of that again, of having nowhere to turn if I stumble again. I'm afraid of feeling helpless as I become increasingly unable to do the things I need to do. I couldn't relax because it was always on the back of my mind; that I needed to do something and I knew I wasn't going to. It felt like trying wasn't worth it, because I'd already failed; that once I failed, I couldn't succeed again. I was miserable, and I don't want school to do that to me again. It seems like school shouldn't be a thing that breaks you.

I'd like to be trusted to do things on my own again. It doesn't seem like it'd be such a big deal to be able to set my own restrictions for small things. I guess they'd argue that I proved I couldn't handle it, but that's forgetting the many variables contributing to my downfall, so to speak. I'm afraid that I'll be tired all the time again. I'm afraid that I'll fall behind. It feels like they're expecting me too, as if I haven't learned anything from last year, or this year is just a continuation of last year. It's not, and I wish they'd extend the same trust to me that they did at the beginning of last year. This year doesn't have the same influences as last year, after all. It's fair to say that I'm a different person, and I could at least be given a chance.

I've digressed. I meant to talk about how the close of summer invariably brings a melancholy feel, no matter how well or poorly it was spent.

I have to go to bed now, so I guess I'll leave this somewhat unfinished. Maybe I'll continue my solemnity tomorrow, if I don't realize how boring it is by then :P

Lazy

I don't know what to write. I'm kind of bummed about school starting on Tuesday.

 

I'm going to get a haircut eventually. Tell me, friends, should I just get a trim, or change my style? What style should I get, if so?

 

Anyway, till next time.

Boots!

Today I am the proud owner of a lovely pair of boots! I've wanted these for ages and finally had enough. I cannot wait till it's cold enough to wear them regularly.

 

Aren't they great? I'm totally going to wear these all the time. They're pretty comfy, too. With my new jacket and aviators I am basically going to be the coolest person ever.

 

Do you know what those boots say? They say badass. They're not some frilly knee-highs with pointy little toes. Those are getting shit done boots. These are boots that don't ask no questions, don't tell no lies. Do you understand how awesome these boots are? I think you do.

 

I'm going to go try on outfits with my new boots. Till tomorrow, friends!

Revised Schedule

I received my new schedule in the mail today! It's much improved; I have study hall, phsyics, and English AP. Unfortunately, I still have U.S. History 2A, instead of AP. There isn't an AP class in the slot I currently have it in, so I'm hoping I can switch it with gym. I don't know if there's a gym class every period like there was the previous years, but I can hope! I have to wait until school starts to talk to my counselor, since they're no longer accepting schedule revisions, which sucks, because that means I have to sit through at least a day of USH A.

 

Hopefully it'll all work out, right?

 

I have been eagerly awaiting my date with Zack all day! I'm already all dressed and am now super duper bored. Hours never go this slowly when I'm doing something fun. I read a little bit of summer reading, and should continue to do so, but I can't bring myself to subject myself to more boredom. Ah well; I'll get it done eventually.

 

I'll tell you all about my date tomorrow! Till next time, friends!

Post-Extravaganza

I'm kind of relieved that BEDA is close to the end. It's been fun to be involved in blogging again, but it's hard to think of something to say every day, especially on those days I just laze around.

 

Today was one of those days. I started out with honorable intentions, reading a chapter or two in The Tipping Point, but I just couldn't continue. It was awful. Reading that book is like walking through cement. Tomorrow I intend to finish it, and start The Grapes of Wrath, before going on my date with Zack! I probably won't, but whatever. Date with Zack! I'm so excited for that! I'm going to wear the dress that Kim gave me on Saturday.

 

I keep forgetting to write an entry till right before I have to go to bed, so I always have to cut it short. Good night, friends! Till next time!

EXTRAVAGANZA

Sorry this entry is so late in coming! I took pictures of my presents with my mom's phone and she only now relinquished it to me to be uploaded. Get ready for a PICTURE EXPLOSION.

 

People started arriving a bit past 4:30--actually, everyone kind of came at once! At first we just hung out in my room, because I hadn't actually planning any activities, but then we went downstairs and played Taboo, which is a great party game. Kristen arrived, and then my dad came with the pizza! There is so much pizza here right now. We'll be eating pizza for days, and drinking all the leftover soda for weeks. Not that I mind! I was raring at the bit to get to present opening, so basically as soon everyone finished pizza eating, I went to it!

 

 

 

I opened Kristen's card first. Isn't it adorable? She included a $25 gift card, which puts me at a decent amount of shopping money! There will never be enough back-to-school shopping. Never.

 

 

These beautiful things are from Shari! I really love both of them; so pretty! I can't wait till I have an occasion to use the bag! Her card was cute too (she drew it herself!) but I forgot to take a picture of it.

 

 

Dana got me this lovely assortment of things, including: a shiny little wallet with llamas on it; delicious-smelling hand lotion, whose scent is called "Pearanormal Activity"; a really adorable shade of nail polish called "beach bum blu" that I'm wearing right now; and last but not least that gorgeous card you see there.

 

I think I actually screamed when I saw the sunglasses Maya got for me; aviators are absolutely my favorite sunglasses ever. I've resisted the urge to wear them at all moments of the day, including when I'm inside, but it's hard. That CD is, as you can clearly read, a compilation of all the songs we've mentioned on Facebook! These songs include, in order:

1. Call Me Maybe -- Carly Rae Jepsen
2. Girlfriend -- Avril Lavigne
3. Single Ladies -- Beyonce
4. Umbrella -- Rihanna
5. Baby One More Time -- Britney Spears
6. S.O.S. -- The Jonas Brothers
7. Best of Friends -- from The Fox and the Hound
8. First Day of My Life -- Bright Eyes
9. Teenage Dream -- Katy Perry
10. Heart It Races -- Dr. Dog
11. The demented, horrifying version of "Somebody That I Used to Know" where Gotye's version and Glee's version are played together.
12. What Makes You Beautiful -- One Direction
13. Oxford Comma -- Vampire Weekend
14. Human -- The Killers
15. Handlebars -- Flobots
16. Little Talks -- Of Monsters and Men
17. Feel Good Inc. -- Gorillaz

So if that's not the most ridiculous/best compilation you've ever seen, I don't know what to tell you :P

 

Tegan got me this adorable outfit, which I plan on wearing on the first day of school! I love that bracelet so much, and the skirt is just perfect. The shirt isn't something I'd pick out normally, but it's actually really cute! Tegan gave me an absolutely gorgeous card, but I forgot to take a picture of it! Maybe tomorrow, if I remember. The pen is so nice, and writes very well!

 

 

Last but not least, Kim got me this fabulous dress and necklace which I'm going to wear to my date on Tuesday! I had always been nervous about the collared dresses in that style, but it's really cute! The card is too, obviously. I am rather cute, if I do say so myself :3

 

So that concludes the photo binge! Then the cake came out, and the cake was fabulous. Okay, I lied, one more photo.

 

This is the cake my mom made! It's a computer! Isn't that fantastic? The monitor was chocolate and the keyboard was strawberry, and both were delicious.

 

After cake, we migrated upstairs and had a super makeover dressup extravaganza, during which we all put on the most ridiculous outfits we could, and Shari applied really nice makeup while I went hog wild. Unfortunately, Shari, Dana, and Kristen had to leave after an hour. When they left, the rest of us washed up and changed into pajamas, then played Guitar Hero for two hours without realizing it. We discovered that none of us, except for Kim, are even remotely good at anything. Then we went back upstairs to play Never Have I Ever (I came in third!), and hung out just talking for a while upstairs. The last of us fell asleep at 4:30, which is pretty successful for a sleepover!

 

In the morning everyone had to leave kind of early, and just like that it was over. But it was fantastic, and totally worth all the effort! My birthday gifts were lovely, as was the entire party! I'm being kicked off now, so good night, folks! Till next time! :D

So close!

The party is all set up for! We have streamers properly set up (I managed to mess them up the first attempt), fruit cut up for a fruit tray, veggie dip prepared, pizza ordered for later, balloons inflated and tied to chairs (and to the mailbox, like a proper party), pretzels at the ready for the first guests, an extra Wii controller graciously lended from Tegan, and an extremely clean house. I'm pretty exhausted and appreciate the down time before the first guests arrive (though seriously I can't wait at all omg).

 

I'm finally sixteen! So I can freely say that I'm dating Zack! He's basically my favorite person (except for Maya and Maia, of course) and I'm very happy. On Tuesday we'll be going out to dinner--our first official date! I can't wait to see him again! We haven't hung out since last Thursday and I'm kind of going crazy. He called earlier to wish me a happy birthday, which was lovely, though unfortunately I had to hang up to bathe the cat.

 

I should probably go, since people will be arriving soon. Till tomorrow, friends, when I tell you all about my amazing party! :D

Also, thanks for the birthday wishes Lizzie and Natalie! :)

My Cat is Afraid of Bubbles

Really, my mom brought home a bubble maker for the party tomorrow and my cat freaked out! In other news, my mom got a bubble maker! Also matching napkins and plastic utensils, like a real birthday party! And streamers and balloons! Balloons, guys! Tomorrow we're going to set the decorations up!

 

We did a lot of cleaning today in preparation. Specifically, I picked up the office, upstairs, and most of the living room, and vacuumed. I vacuumed the couch. Tomorrow I intend to Febreze everything, everywhere. Everything will smell of Mediterranean Lavender.

 

Everything.

 

I can't believe my birthday is tomorrow! It's just bizarre, especially after so long preparing for it. I doubt I'll even be able to sleep tonight, I'm so excited! Tomorrow, once everything is set up, I'm probably going to spend a lot of time jumping up and down in suspense for the first person to arrive. I'll try to blog before then, though, because I'll definitely forget once the party starts!

 

Good night, guys! It's my last night as a fifteen-year-old! Till tomorrow! :D

Cleaning Cleaning Cleaning

...is what I should have done today, anyway. I did a very little bit! Like in my room and stuff. For the rest of the day, I hung around the house, visited Tegan, and painted half of my nails before messing them up and abandoning that particular endeavor. I'm distracted easily, is the problem.

 

My mom woke me up around eight so I could go shopping with her, and that was pretty successful. We got food for the party! So much food. A ridiculous amount of food, really. I also got new fish, since I only had one left! I got two more of the same kind I had, and two bright orange fish. I'm very happy with them! My mom also got me some lipstick, since in two days I'll be allowed to wear it. It's a really nice color and it smells delicious. Like fruity magic wonderlips. That sounded much less strange in my head, admittedly.

 

Tomorrow I'm going to finish cleaning the living room, the office, and upstairs. Then I vacuum! I hate vacuuming, but, you know, has to be done. I realized today that my carpet smells kind of funny. Oh Febreze, you're my best friend.

 

Till next time, friends.