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How very disheartening.

[You're Gonna Go Far, Kid--The Offspring]

I would be referring to, of course, to the fact that almost all the blogs I love (on Blogger) sound the same. Sometimes I confuse them. It's like everyone who goes on Blogger gets sucked into the same trap. Sure, it's still entertaining, and the stories are somewhat different, but you could read only one blog and be happy.

Crap, I'm gonna offend someone with that. Whatever.

Anyways, Imma try to sound like the Blogger blogs...because isn't knowing how to do something the best what to prevent it?

Topic for today's entry: Nick.

BLAH. Frustration. He acts like...a perv. But to me specifically. No one else. And he says stuff that would normally mean he likes me. Then he insists we're "just friends".

[Animal I Have Become--Three Days Grace]

Not cool, Nick. He freaks out every time Gem mentions him liking me or Valentine's Day. I'm hyperventilating too, but in secret. She asked if I liked him, and I said no, but she didn't believe me.

I'm kinda worried he actually means the things he says. Which would be sick, of course, but would also mean he likes me, which is worse.

BLAH! That's all I can stomach for now. Half of it isn't true anyway.

WORST. DAY. EVER.

[Halo--Beyonce]

Okay, not quite, but I'm really mad at myself. You see, awhile ago some guy named Leo started commenting on Nat's blog, and he had a blog too, and yeah. So, I IMed her on her blog thing and said I was Leo. Baaaaad move.

So now Nat's mad. Blah. I would call in sick tomorrow or something, but I'd miss the science test, and HBP might bite my head off.

Also, Moo was talking to me in Drama. Well, he was calling my 'Strawberry Shortcake', but same thing. That...bothers me. The only reason he was talking to me was because none of his other friends were there. Blah. Not cool, Moo.

[Circus--Britney Spears]

And what really topped the cake (with delicious chocolate icing, no less) was math. We had the Unit Test yesterday (notice it's in capitals. That's how revered it is) and we had a sub instead of our regular teacher, the Z (who is awesome). Some brilliant people *coughtaylorandherdumbfriendscough* thought they could ask for help on the Unit Test. The sub gave it to them (which was his fault), and then started announcing answers and showing us how to do things. He even asked someone from the class to come up and help.

[I Don't Wanna Be In Love--Good Charlotte]

I didn't know people could reach that level of stupidity. The Z found out and told us that since we were a school of character, we could decide to be honorable or not. If you got an answer from the sub, write -4 next to the question (each question was worth 4 points). I didn't cheat off him, and I my eyes were still stinging (awesome speech on his part). Taylor was crying. If I didn't hate her, I'd feel bad for her.

I missed a point on the open-ended question we got the day before, though I'm not sure what for. Oh well. I wasn't really expecting to be a wizard on the Unit Test, but it's still kinda disappointing.

[Beautiful, Dirty, Rich--Lady GaGa]

Another mean/"sick" thing I did today: Taylor's on my late bus, so when she got on, I started talking to Vera about what happened in math reeeeeally loudly.

Bah, why am I being so mean today?????????? What's wrong with me??????

Ugh, don't answer that. I can figure it out myself. AND NO MEAN COMMENTS, PLEASE. My guilt is enough...ugh. That's part of what the Z was talking about...guilt. I didn't cheat, but I've been piling it on all day. I feel sick. And tired.

[I Hate This Part--The Pussycat Dolls]

Bah. This isn't turning out as funny as I hoped. No, indeed. I must work on making my guilty conscious/miserable day funnier.

And, to add to my guiltiness, I've had two sodas today. I'm only supposed to have one. Bah. I should make a list.

Reasons I Feel Guilty (Today):

• I pulled a really sick joke on Nat.
• I've had two sodas when I'm only supposed to have one.
• I made Taylor's conscious feel worse (sooooo hypocritical).
• I traded my broken earphones for my dad's (this was a few days ago, but still).
• My dad gave me the sausage leftovers instead of the chicken leftovers, even though he had the chicken for lunch so should've gotten the sausage.
• I should be working on my Language A project, but I'm not. Ani's gonna kill me, but I'll probably tell her I left my binder at home.
• My dad wanted to do something (play a game, watch a movie, etc.) and I said no, even after he gave me the dinner he wanted.
• The sausage was...not as good as it was, but I told my dad it was good, which would only make him feel worse.
• I got mad at Vera at the bus stop (we were having a snowball fight) and threw an iceball at her. She threw one first, but I should've been better than that.
• I smudged Silver's glasses.
• I'd rather skip school tomorrow than face Nat.
• I got more songs on iTunes when there are starving children in Africa.
• I'm supposed to be entertaining you guys, but instead I'm complaining about how crappy I acted today.
• I barely helped in gym.
• I left my math binder at home so I can't do the homework. It's probably on the eboard, but I'm not going to check.
• Every time I tell myself I'm going to do something, I don't do it.
• I went to Chapter 3 on my story and I'm not even on 50 pages yet.
• I've been listening to the same song for the last fifteen minutes so I don't have to pause the list.
• I feel horrible but I'm just being selfish because so many people have it way worse than me.
• I interrupted Kim's meditation.
• I said a song she liked was boring.
• I can never think of an interesting conversation with Lolo anymore.
• I would lie to get myself out of trouble.
• I skip lunch a lot.
• I lost a hundred dollars (it's somewhere in my room, but that's the same as being lost).
• I don't appreciate things I should.
• I don't feel bad about things.
• I don't feel guilty when I lie.

Bah, I could go on and on. Again, please don't comment with anything mean, please, but advice would be welcome. Very, very welcome.

Sleepover/Neighborhood Bonding

Woah! Great progress with the whole restoring-friendship-with-Vera thing. Can we say sleepover?
It started out with an insanely gorgeous day yesterday, in which I refused to stay holed up inside all day (like I usually do). I went over to Vera's house to do something, and Nicky (9-year-old neighbor) and Rora (Vera's little sister) were there. I helped tem get ice out of a wheelbarrow till Vera came out.
After wandering around, trying to think of something to do, Vera brought out HOCKEY STICKS. I've never played street hockey before, and neither has Vera, so it couldn't be really called "street hockey". More like "hitting a orange ball with plastic sticks that somewhat resemble hockey sticks". I was so beating her.
Then Nicky and Rora came out, and Nicky got real hockey sticks (he plays), so we played with them. I don't think Vera was too happy about this. Anyway, me and Rora beat Nicky and Vera 7-2 before we quit. Rejoice!
Then I got bored, and Vera was already bored, so she went inside and asked if we could have a sleepover. I'm sure you already know the answer to this. Yay!
Rora asked if Nicky could sleep over too, and he could. 5 people so far! Woo!
Vera lost one of her remotes (leaving her with one), so I ran back to my house and grabbed mine. It took FOREVER to sync them all. But it was so worth it when we got it :D. Playing WiiSports with 4 people is insanely fun. I won every time, of course.
Pizza for dinner. I had, like, 5 peices. It was so good.
Then we watched Shrek the Third, because I'd never seen it before. It was okay, I guess. Then we told scary stories! Woo, fun. Nicky told an insanely scary story. I lost count of how many times I screamed.
Then, a staple of every sleepover, A PILLOW FIGHT. I destroyed them all. ALL.
At some point during all this, Nicky got mad at me and jokingly punched me, after which I wrestled him to the ground and held him there, laughing at his weak attempts to break free.
Ah, good times, good times.
It was pretty late at this point. (I also destroyed Nicky at Mario vs. Luigi. He never had a chance.) Vera and Rora fell asleep in the middle of Kung Fu Panda (it wasn't bad, surprisingly), so when it was done, I stayed up talking to Nicky.
His brother is an ass. I'm just going to leave it at that.
I was kinda surprised that Nicky would talk to me. He acted like we were, you know, friends. Huh. Weird.
I fell asleep around 4ish, and woke up 5 hours later. We watched The Dark Knight for breakfast.
Oops! I meant we had choclate pancakes and french toast for breakfast. We did watch The Dark Knight, though.
I had so much food :D. Well, not really. Three french toasts and three pancakes, but they were small. Oh, and a lot of bacon. I love bacon. And orange juice.
Vera's dad had gotten a new game (in which we raced dogs, woo!), so we played that when The Dark Knight was done. I kept getting in last till I figured out how to make the dog move faster ;). Nicky left before this.
HA HA. Vera and Rora got in trouble for fighting. I had to keep biting my tongue to give them some advice on how to NOT get in trouble, cuz I know it's awkward for parents to yell at their kids in front of guests, and I wanted to make it seem like I didn't notice.
I never got why siblings argue so much. I think I'm gonna do a newspaper article on it. Maybe.

I have nothing to do but post. Blah.

Rejoice, no? Indeed.
I've given up on my Favorite Songs list. There's just too many I love. So from now on, I'm not putting them in any paticular order. You'll have to listen to them all to find out which one's best :D
I'll probably list them....later.

[Monsters--Matchbook Romance]

I didn't do much today. At least, not that's worth blogging about. Can we say sad?
You better be able to. It's kinda pathetic if you can't.
I should be doing something productive, like, say, my homework, which I just remembered as I wrote that sentence, but I'm not. I'll do it later.
Arghness. I made a new blog (for fun) called Red Snoopie, but I messed it up. You see, at first I wanted to put it a picture of myself on it, but nobody would know it was me because it'd be under a different name. It was a blonde moment. I made a new one with the same account, and couldn't change get a seperate profile. That blog was deleted. Now my name's Red, though, and my picture is changed. Anyways, I made a new account, but I couldn't use my original URL (redsnoopie.blogspot.com). I'm pissed. I didn't know I wouldn't be able to use it again.

[Human--The Killers]



I changed it to red-snoopie.blogspot.com, which is not nearly as cool as the first one. By that time, though, I didn't want to work on it anymore. Really, that would be my fourth active blog. That's too many blogs for anyone. I put everything [important] on Cloudy, so it couldn't be a story blog or something. I don't take enough pictures for a photo blog. And who want's to manage comments and friends for four blogs? I'll use it for something eventually, but for now, it's gathering dust in the back of my thought-was-really-cool-then-got-bored-with-it drawer.
I have so many things like that. It's depressing.
Needless to say, I'm not very commited. That's one of the things I need to work on. Blah, work.

[Mr. Brightside--The Killers]


Blah, I can't get the picture up, but I found the awesomest dress ever. It is freaking gorgeous. I will wear it someday.

[I'm Yours--Jason Mraz]

You know what would be really messed up? If someone like, oh, say, Daniel read my blogs. Or Basil. Or Catman. That would be...messed up.
Oh, and Basil knows I like him. Blah. I knew this, of course, but it's never very pleasant to have your fears confirmed.
I wonder if they have a blog? That would be messed up as well. If they do, I must find it...
I wonder if there's something even the internet doesn't have information on?

I. Am. Bored.

So I'm going to take it out onto you hapless vict----I mean, readers.
Rejoice.

[Love, Save the Empty--Erin McCarley]

I've revised my five favorite songs, which I am posting...right...about...NOW!

1. Stricken by Disturbed
2. Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria
3. I'm Yours by Jason Mraz
4. Hotel California by Eagles
5. Holiday by Green Day/Nine In the Afternoon by Panic! at the Disco

As you can see, it's a tie for fifth. Those aren't the only songs I like, though. I have...wait, lemme check.
I have 225 songs! I'm almost past Nick. I can't wait to show him. :D

[Tears Don't Fall--Bullet for My Valentine]

People:

Bestest Buds-

Nat
Lolo
Ani
Gem
[not] Vera
Kim
Silver

People I HATE-

Taylor
Sara
Shortie
Stalker

The Awesomest Guys EVER-

Basil
Frenchie
Catman
Daniel
Nick

"Other" Guys-

Apple
Moo Boy
Raul
BP

Teachers-

Lama: Humanities
Bally: Language A (LA)
HBP: Science
Shore: French

Other-

March
Rachel
Tiff
Mermaid

[Livin' on a Prayer--Bon Jovi]

I know so many people.

"There's never enough time to do all the nothing you want."

That, my friends, is a quote from Calvin, from Calvin and Hobbes (only the greatest thing ever).
And yes, I know I messed up the words. Deal.
Sorry I haven't blogged in forever. I have three active blogs right now, so it's a little hard deciding which one to blog on. Usually it's Cloudy, but I got a new one recently.
I am majorly bored.
We {me and my parents} went shopping yesterday! Yay. I actually wanted to go shopping. Well, only at J.C.Penny's, but that's something. It's weird to actually want to do something.
I got new jeans :). That brings my total up to four. I only need one more!
Also on the list: a new Snoopie shirt (I live for these) and sneakers! My mom got me two turtlenecks and a berry-colored shirt (which I'm wearing now) earlier, while I was at school. So...I have three long-sleeved shirts. Rejoice!
Then we went to Applebee's :D.
I wanna invite one of my friend's over, but I probably won't. My house is a mess. And I'm lazy.

I just need to remember...

"the space that's in between insane and insecure"