Which, by the way, is the name of a Blue October album.
I have a lot to say....but nothing that I'd admit to anyone. I feel like I'm dying till summer gets here, till I can escape this place. It's not just the school, the people, or the situation...I want to escape myself. I want to break free of this mess that is me and just be different. I feel so bogged down, you know? It's not like I hate myself--I like parts of myself, and resent others--but I don't feel like myself. I feel like...this isn't the place I'm supposed to be. Or I'm not the person I'm supposed to be.
....or I just have such crap self-esteem that I'd do anything to be someone different.