No. Not sad. Just kind of numb. Some things were good, most things were bad. I had the urge, as I always do, to talk to Basil, except this time it was more than just a urge. I felt like every step I took was another missed oppurtunity. I don't even know what I'd say. He'd probably laugh anyway. But I didn't say it, so it doesn't matter what he would've done.
I can write anything in the world to him on here and it won't make the slightest difference. I can get Kim to give him all the messages in the world and it just makes me a coward for not doing it myself.
That's it. Monday. I'm through with this crap. I need something to happen. Something's going to happen. As Lolo said, I need to make it happen. I will. I will!